Thursday, December 30, 2010

Our Scare...

Up until December 21st everything had been going great in the pregnancy.  That day I got off work and did some Christmas shopping and headed home.  I checked the mail and there was an envelope from my doctors office...the letter inside told me I had a "level 2 ultrasound" at Midwest Perinatal Associates.  I had no idea what a level 2 ultrasound was so of course I googled it.  I read that they are done when the doctor sees something from a previous ultrasound and they want to exam it further.  Okay, a little scary, I hadn't been told anything was wrong so maybe this was a mistake.  Than I went to the MPA web site and that's when I started to get really nervous.  The office specializes in high risk pregnancies, trisomy 13, 18, 21 (downs), heart defects, kidney problems, ect.  Brett got home so I showed him and I was upset and crying and we just kept telling ourselves it was probably a mistake and it wasn't meant for us.  I really believed it wasn't for us because we hadn't been told ANYTHING and everything thus far was perfect.  Thank goodness we had a doctors appointment the next day.
Brett hadn't planned on coming to this appointment since it was just suppose to be routine so my sister had planned on coming with me but since the letter arrived he decided he better come just in case.  We get in to the office and the nurse does her little routine and than we wait for the doctor.  She comes in and she always asks us first if we have any questions.  I pulled out the letter and told her I had no idea what this means, what is going on?  She said, "they didn't call you?"  I said no.  She said she was so sorry, she checked her computer and it said they had called twice and left messages but I didn't get those messages because of my stupid new phone.  So partly my own fault.  Anyway she went on to tell us that from our last ultrasound she had found what's called an "echogenic focus of the heart."  It's a small mineralization or calcium deposit inside the heart that shows up on the ultrasound as a bright white spot.  It's not a heart defect, it is very common in pregnancies, it often goes away by the 3rd trimester and you never have to worry about it is also a "soft marker" for down syndrome.
I immediately burst into tears.  She told us that more often than not it's not a big deal and everything is fine, in fact most doctors don't even tell patients about it.  She feels like because it isn't her baby that we as parents have the right to know, so that is why she wanted to make the appointment for us.  All of our other tests came back negative for downs and our chances were 1 in 10,000...very low.  So the level 2 ultrasound would be a extensive test to look for other signs of down syndrome.  If the specialist doesn't see any other markers than we won't have to worry about it again and it will go away.  If they see other things that would indicate downs they would offer us an amniocentesis (not fun), and we would go from there.  The doctor didn't seem to concerned but I was a mess.
We got outside and I just lost it.  Our entire lives would change dramatically.  Everything started running through my mind, our marriage, finances, how would I tell people? Crazy thoughts I know.  I called and told family what was going on, went home, had a good cry, and slept for 4 1/2 hours.  
The next day I called a friend in Texas whose baby had the same thing and I called a friend of ours in Detroit who is a labor and delivery doc.  Both of those phone calls made me feel a little better and after doing some research on google I was starting to feel better.  
Our appointment wasn't until Jan 10 but they told me I could call everyday and see if they had any cancellations.  So I called Monday and they had an opening for Wednesday!  Although I felt better about everything I was still scared.  So Wednesday came and it was possibly the longest ride to Overland Park EVER!  No matter how many people say they know everything is going to be ok, try and relax it will be fine, there is just no way you can, not until you know something from the doctors.  We got called back into the room, there was the doctor and the nurse who explained everything about the echogenic focus that there is to know and than they got started on the ultrasound.  They went from head to toe, through every body part, taking measurements, looking for anything that may indicate downs.  He kept saying everything was looking normal so I was getting more relaxed as it went on.  He even said that focus wasn't as bright as he thought it would be (which is a good thing because most fade by the 3rd trimester).  So after the ultrasound he said that because of the echogenic focus our risk for downs went from 1 in 10,000 to 1 in 5,000 which according to him is still very low.  He said he did not recommend an amnio and he was happy with our results.
I, of course wanted to know 100% but the amnio is the only way to find that out but your chances of a miscarriage are 1 in 400 and he didn't find it necessary so I said fine I'll be happy with your findings :)  And we were on our way!
Of course I feel 95% better about everything, but there is still that feeling of what if....and I'll have that feeling until I see my baby.  
We had so many prayers and thoughts coming our way, it's amazing that a little Facebook post can lead to so many people (including friends of friends that I don't even know) praying for us.  My family has been SUPER supportive and my friends are AMAZING.  I couldn't be more thankful and I can't say enough how much it means to us, you'll never know how much it truly meant.
So thank God for a healthy growing baby boy, thank God for my peace of mind, and thank God for my family and friends.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Christmas 2010

We had a great Christmas! This year was Brett's big family Christmas so all of his cousins were in town from Texas, their kids, his aunt, and his dad.  We spent xmas eve with Brett's mom, went to a great church service, ate dinner, and opened gifts.  Christmas morning we headed to my parents bright and early!  This is most likely the last Christmas in the house we grew up in, as my parents just closed on their lot, so finally their new house will start to go up!  Which made this xmas a little bitter sweet :)  We grew up in that house so there are a ton of memories there, especially involving Christmas!

We opened gifts...

Colby :)  

...and ate our traditional breakfast...sooooooo yummy!

Please excuse my extreme need for a tan...

After my parents we headed to Brett's grandparents house and spent the rest of the day there!  We ate lots of food, got great stuff, and spent lots of time with family.
We made out pretty well this year!

A much needed set of new pots/pans from my parents 

CUTE Jordan outfit from my sister.

 Hopefully the Boys will be a little better by the time our baby is wearing this ;)

 Feast your eyes on what will be this child's ONLY Texas Longhorn gear.  And to even the score I'll be adding 3 Nebraska outfits as well :) Brett was pretty pumped about these!

This baby is going to have a ton of ADIDAS stuff thanks to Steph and a ton of Jordan/Nike stuff from my sisters and Brett!

An awesome digital photo frame from Brett's dad, I'm pretty excited about this one!

So again, we had a great Christmas with amazing family.  We are very blessed! 

On a side note: I know most of you know something is going on with our baby but may not know exactly what.  We have an appointment Wednesday and when I know the results from that I will let you know all about what is happening.  It is a very stressful/scary situation waiting for answers and not knowing what is going on.  Everything could be fine or it could be a life changing appointment...scary.  Please pray for our baby, for Brett and I, and that everything goes well on Wednesday.  As soon as I know I will blog all about what we've been through.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

1/2 way there!

I can't even believe that we are half way through this pregnancy. CRAZY!!  Everyone says that last half really drags on, and since I'm won't be in school and work will be pretty slow, it just might.  We had Halloween, Thanksgiving, school, the start of basketball season, my birthday, Brett's birthday, and a ton of photography clients that made the first half fly by!  I guess that means I'll have to get some photography clients lined up :)
I'm still feeling great, no crazy cravings yet, the bump is for sure growing and growing, and I can feel him moving around in there at least once or twice a day, absolutely amazing.  I'm so ready to feel that first big kick!  Still no progress on the name.  I think I've narrowed my list to my top 3 however Brett has not (shocker I know).  We've told everyone what we like but once we can agree on our top 2 or 3 we will keep them to ourselves and most likely decide once we see the baby.
I have a check-up this Wednesday so I'll be sure to do an update after that.

This weekend has been busy with Christmas parties, we had one for Brett's job which is my dad's work, and three of my uncles, so it was fun to have family there.  And Saturday we had the LAC party and since Brett kind of trains there we were invited!

Hope everyone has very Merry Christmas!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Christmas Survey...

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?  Wrapping paper by far!

2. Real tree or Artificial?  Real....always real.  The smell is great and it's tradition to go out and cut it down!

3. When do you put up the tree?  Within the week after Thanksgiving.

4. When do you take the tree down?  Within the week after new years.

5. Do you like eggnog?  Eww no! Actually I've never tried it but it just grosses me out for some reason.

6. Favorite gift received as a child?  Oh that's a hard one...there's not one that really stands out (at least that I can think of right now) so even though I wasn't a child my camera from my parents is pretty close to the top!

7. Hardest person to buy for?  Not anyone in particular but my parents are difficult sometimes.

8. Easiest person to buy for?  Brett...he's hard to everyone else but not me! 

9. Do you have a nativity scene?   No...but in the future yes.

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Mail!

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?  Not one that comes to mind but I hate getting underwear, it's just weird, I'll get my own :) lol...

12. Favorite Christmas Movie?  Oh too many...Elf, The Santa Clause, Home Alone, Christmas Vacation, and all the old classics, Ruldoph, Fosty ect.

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?  Whenever I get time.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?  I gave one of our wedding gifts as a Christmas gift...does that count?

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?  My mom's fudge with her amazing hot apple cider!

16. Lights on the tree (colored or clear)?  Clear.

17. Favorite Christmas song?  I want a hippopotamus for Christmas, and the Carpenters Sleigh Ride

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?  Home!

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's?  Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen, Rudolph.

20. Angel, star or ribbon on top of tree?  Ribbon.

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning?  Morning.

22. Favorite children's Christmas song?  Oh I guess that would be "I want a hippopotamus for Christmas" as well!

23. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?  People who don't know how to drive/drive like morons in the snow.

24. Favorite ornament theme or color?  As much as I normally hate gold I love red and gold on the tree!

25. Turkey or ham on Christmas day?  My family makes ham but I don't like ham so just sides for me.

26. What do you want for Christmas this year?  Just to be with family and eat lots of fudge!
27. Does anyone in your family dress up as Santa?  No.

28. Age you discovered who Santa was?  I don't really remember...

29. Eggnog, hot chocolate, or apple cider?  Apple cider.

30. Traditional colors (red and green) or other colors?  Traditional.

31. Do you have any Christmas decorations on your roof?  No...

32. How does Santa get into your house? Chimney or magic key? Down our chimney!

33. Do you prefer gifts or gift cards? Depends on the gift giver lol...that's bad.

34. Favorite children's Christmas Cartoon?  Not really a cartoon but Rudolph.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

The start of my 5th month...

This was taken a about 1 1/2 weeks ago so I'll update soon with a better one.

I'm still feeling great, I've had a little more energy than normal, I do get heartburn from pizza and spaghetti so far, not so fun but otherwise fine!  This whole pregnancy (knock on wood) has been pretty darn far.  I'm hoping that doesn't mean I'll have a horrible labor!  I only have 1 pair of jeans that fit and they are getting a little (and by a little I mean a lot) snug.  I haven't felt the baby move yet but that isn't uncommon, I lay in bed at night and stay really still in hopes I'll feel something!
Maisy has been laying on my stomach a lot in the past few weeks, especially when I'm in bed at night and Brett is out playing his video games. It's so sweet. 

 I went to Kohl's the other day and bought our first outfit and set of pj's.  I was so excited to get it home and hang it in the closet, they are so cute!  And we got two new ones to add from Kelly, thanks!  I can't wait until after Christmas so we can start cleaning out the guest room and converting it to the nursery.  I'm so anxious just to get the room emptied out I can hardly stand it!
I can't believe I'm already 5 months, that just seems so crazy! It's gone by a lot faster than I thought, I feel like we just announced that we were prego!  Looking forward to the next few months! My next appointment is on the 22nd so I'll update again with all the info!

Here are a few of my latest favorite Maisy pictures, I know your excited :)

I just wanna kiss her cute little face! She loves to lay on Brett's side, she always looks so comfortable :)

And here is a video of her playing her favorite game, hide and seek.  I always hide in the closet last because she can never find me there without a little hint....